Probably for the best, because it was a weird thing to have to explain even at the best of times.

And this was so not the best of times.

"Yeah, it's not fair." She knew that. What she didn't know was why she was holding back tears when it was already literally raining on her face. "It's not fair either that by trying to keep you far enough from me that you wouldn't break my heart, I just did it for you. But here we are."